Inside Out

Happy-Sad-Happy-Sad

2007-04-24T23:55:00.000-07:00

i havent post anythin but sad lil poems in my past posts so i'll try and make this post livelier..

but i really hav to get a few sad things out of the way

i lost a sweet sweet friend for some time coz he delusionally thinks that not talkin to him would be good fr me.. well i'll wait fr him to contact me like i said to him..
he is this shweet bachha who thinks he is all grown up and knows wat is best fr everybdy..
well he doesnt and i hope he realises that and contacts me soon..

my summer trainin sucks its really borin.. coz its with a PSU and basically they do not hav a project to giv.. dnt kno why they selected me.. they r not payin me anythin.. oh btw i was blackmailed into takin this summer trainin by the palcecom under the threat thatif i dnt take this an fail to get thru the my dream company they would wash their hands off me.. and not help me get summers at all.. so i had to take this one

now that the sad things r outta the way..

i have joined the British council library for these summer trainin months so that i can do watever research i want.. sadly i dnt hav an internet connection at home..

i am back on speakin terms with a dear friend that i thot i had lost .. i hope we remain good friends..

am gettin loads of good food at home .. a nice change frmm the grubby mess ka khaana

i am tryin really hard to find things that goin well rite now in my life.. well thats all that i have been able to rake out the shit arnd me..

here is a better idea.. i'll just list down 5 things that would make me unbelievably happy :

a) guy i love loves me bak as much as i love him
b) get over the guy that doesnt love me back and find a nice guy who does
c) the friend who has stopped speakin to me starts talkin to me again
d) i eat tons of icecream and not gain even an ounce of weight
e) a great job that pays me really well .. i hav to wait fr this fr another year but again this has the most chance of coming true

i feel a lil better after puttin up a real post after such a long time..

He wont be mine

2007-03-28T13:38:00.000-07:00

He sits infront of me listening to songs and i cry .. knowing he wont be mine

We discuss subjects we r goin to take next trimester and i cry .. knowing he wont be mine

He dances with me and i cry .. knowing he wont be mine

He kissed me and i cry .. knowing he wont be mine

He makes me laugh yet i cry .. knowing he wont be mine

I am writin this as he sits in frnt of me totally oblivious to the fact that i cry .. knowing he wont be mine

Come Back!!

2007-02-25T01:40:00.000-08:00

well i am back frm .. i dnt kno gazillions of seconds of hibernation.....
i cant say i missed bloggin.. but today actually for a couple of days i have been havin this urge to put up a post...

i dnt kno wat i am goin to say.. but i just started typin and these words just started flowin..

well life hasnt been all hunky dory .. but whos life is???

i have written a poem and decided that this should be my come back vehicle..
i dnt kno how many of u even come and read d blog now.. but i just really wanted to put these up
and also a dear dear friend requested me to put them up..

Eternal wait

Smtimes i feel i can never stop hurtin
"i love u.. i love u.."
these words i keep on blurtin
to anyone and everyone
who shows me an ounce of affection
gettin hurt is a task
that i have mastered to perfection

i kno my prince will come
but i hope its not too late
my heart is dyin a slow death..
but i'll wait fr him till my last breath...............

as i lay disfigured on the ground
my heartbeat is d only sound
people come and look at me
an ugly girl is all they see
they point at me and call me names
"she is a slut..a shameless dame!"

but when my prince will come and
look at me
more than the scars he would see..
he would see the gaping void in my soul...
he would fill it up and make me whole!!!

Life at IMT

2006-07-08T11:50:00.000-07:00

PHEW!!!!

FINALLY i got some time to write something

I AM BEING RAGGED!!!
After working for 2 yrs i am being ragged !!!!!

God they dnt let us sleep!!! for the first 8 days i just got 1 hr sleep everyday!!!!
and i am used to sleepin for minimum of 10 hrs :(

and the seniors here tell me pretty much nobody sleeps here more than 4 -5 hrs a day!!

gosh that is goin to take some gettin used to..

the ragging itself is not very harryin just the sleep deprivation is driving me crazy!!

so due to that i am most of the time sleepy and weepy amd screamy which leads to a lil bit of more ragging!! :(

i havent read anybdys blog yet .. which i will start doin as soon as i get some time and my lappy ..

i still hav to get the student loan so its goin to b smtime before i get my lappy..

the ragging is pretty much boring coz all they do is ask us to introduce ourselves,sing or dance or perform skits.. and they keep screaming at us all the time and they dnt let us sleep!!

they r sadists abt the sleep thing i tell u!!
all of us keep dozing of in class he he he :)

i am being a back bencher for a change !!
its fun but i got screaming frm 1 teacher already fr talkin too much in his class he he :D

i am tryin out for the Placement committee of our college which is like the most prestigious committee here .. i hope i get thru!!

but the upside of not gettinh thru is that i'll hav lots of time to chill out and relax coz this committee gives us like tons of work!!!

BTW i was branded by the seniors as a girl with an attitude problem.. i think that scene is improving now!!
i am being properly deferential to them on their faces all the while muttering curses under my breath he he ;)

One very imp thing before i end this post :

I MISS ALL OF U.. I HOPE U READ THIS POST AND COMMENT SO THAT I KNOW THAT U GUYS MISS ME TOO!!!!!!

Stuff

2006-06-19T02:26:00.000-07:00

a lot of unconnected stuff(inspiration raj's latest post)

first smthing that i want to gloat about...
I got more than 40 comments fr the first time ever for my last post.....
i kno i kno its not such a big deal.. but yeay! i am happy..
now i am not a great blogger chick who gets like gazillions of comments so this lil thing makes me happy :D
*sighs at how really minuscule things make her happy*
i am currently listening to songs from KANK(Kabhi alvida na kehna for the uninitiated) ..
now i dnt do formal formal reviews like Raj but lemme giv u a sneak peek frm my point of view

1.Kabhi alvida na kehna(Title song): its ok! i mean u expect more frm the Johars title track atleast.. its nice but my expectations were more i guess
but mayb i'll like it more when i see shahrukh he he :)

2. mitwa: a nice pakistani folksy kind of song .. me likey
reminds me of junoon(the band not the sucky tiger movie)

3. Rock n roll soniye: nice upbeat song.. me likey this one also.. the only problem with it now is that it reminds of pretty woman ever since Raj said that :(

4. wheres the party tonight: again .. upbeat but u kno somehow again reminds me of its the time to disco ..
i mean thats the problem with all the songs of this movie .. they r nice but u kno not upto what i hav come to expect frm the johar movies :(

5. Tumhi dekho na: soft , melodious but doesnt grow on u again i say that i think i have to c the picturisations to really love these songs

Overall verdict: nice songs but below expectations for the Johar clan movies
so arnd 7/10 fr them

Pick of the lot : rock n roll soniye and mitwa
i have to fill up tons of forms and get gazillions of signatures testifyin that i am not takin even a lil piece of lint frm the firm that i am leaving
*hides the laptop that she was tryin to sneak out*
i bought a new pair of jeans that i am sure make me look fatter than i am :( even tho a friend denied it like a gazillion times... gosh guys r so sweet smtimes..
bought like 3-4 kurtas frm fabindia all in preparation fr college life :)
am still thinkin abt which laptop to buy so any suggestions in that regard would be duly appreciated .. only criteria fr them is that they should be less than 60 k
i have to try and find time to say goodbye to all my friends properly before i leave .. gosh that is goin to hurt..

Reminder : Suggestions abt laptop .. all u nerdy guys ahem ..i mean sweetie pies.. i need ur help.. the lappy should be fast,light and cheap(less than 60 K)

Melancholy Me

2006-06-05T22:32:00.001-07:00

i was one of those people who hated status quo of any kind...

i wanted people to be jerked out of their complacency to achieve smthing...

i was one of those people who thought that logic and rationality r the only ways to go ..

i was one of those people who people called a robot or a machine coz i can be very cold and cruel when i am angry...

i was one of those people who thought being the best 1 can be is the only way to be happy...

I WAS ONE OF THOSE PEOPLE

now all i feel like doing is curling up in my bed and not think of leaving it..

now all i feel like doing is just stay where i am ...

now all i do is FEEL

now all i do is feel SAD

As u can guess from the stuff above i am feeling really depressed abt leavin bangalore...
i kno i am goin to join a bscool
i kno is goin to b good fr me(hopefully)

but i am just sad ..mayb i'll look bak and think i was actin bizzare but for now i just want to be SAD and not feel guilty abt it ..
coz people bak home r goin to be really happy fr me..
coz i am comin bak ..

as much as i try i am unable to be happy ..
i hope this is not like an omen that i am not goin to b happy there!

aaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

i hurt yet nobdy understands, i bleed but nobdy can see
coz all they can see is a girl who is goin to be what she wanted to BE

what they cant see is the pain
they say "girl u have got so much to gain"

what they cant see r my tears and fears
they just say "WOW u r goin to b an MBA in 2 years"

i just want smbdy to say "i care"
i just want smdy to say "its going to b ok .. i'll always be there"

Introducing brand new Blogroll

2006-05-29T00:00:00.000-07:00

Hi i have added a nice lil blogroll.. if i have missed out ur name by mishtake pls remind me and i'll add u in a jiffy..
i hav no work to speak of today hence i thought lemme do smthing constructive hence the Blogroll!!

me happy .. me likey my blogroll :D

To ERR is DIVINE

2006-05-21T22:20:00.000-07:00

Just read switchblades post and when i started my comment it got so huge and it just contained what i thought abt religiona nd god and other stuff so ithought might as well put it up as a post :D

He was talikn abt Dan brown,da vinci code ,catholic church...
so here go my views :

All religions r based on faith.. moment u start askin questions.. u start shakin that faith..and thats when the religious leaders get scared coz they bank on people blindly followin them.. so acc to me ther should be basicall NO religious leaders just a lot of books on how to b a good human being that u could read and interpret them.. humans will always acknowledge that there is a divine elemt in our lives.. we dnt hav indoctrinate ourselves that there is God and that is all powerful and he doesnt do anything wrong..
people would realise the divine hand in their lives sooner or later..
they dnt need to go to a temple or church or anypther religious place to realise the existence of god..
temples,churches etc should be used as palce to go sit and just feel peace..

i believ there is a GOD , i dnt claim to kno who he is.. i dnt claim to kno how he works.. but i am sure i wouldnt mind if my god was a lil human ie u kno he was married had kids or whatever.. smhow that would make me feel closer to HIM..

mayb its my hindu upbringing u kno.. reading abt Krishna and all which makes me open to the fact that god may hav his follies too.. i believ GOD errs when children die... i believ he errs when women r raped.. i believ god errs when innocent r masacred in genocides..i believ he errs when a young woman becomes a widow..
i believ he errs when lil children without any kind of bad karma r abused and murdered.....

I believ he errs smtimes but then.........
.....he does miracles when the mother dies in an accident and the child in her womb survives..
when there is a huge mishap and people survive..

i think we hav HIM always arnd us smtimes he is nice to us , smtimes he is unjust .. well smtimes he could hav a been a lil busy ;D.. but i think he always gives us smthin to hold on to , smthing to love ,smthin to cherish.. so that we dnt die...

he gives us hope.. and that i think id his BIGGEST miracle that no matter what he always gives us sm hope..

And in circumstances that he cannot giv HOPE is when he calls us closer to him and we die...
and when he can giv us no hope and and doesnt call us to him is when he ERRS again

what i am basically sayin is that we should be open to stuff which goes against our views..

there might be a grain of truth in what Dan says.. right?.. if yes thn let us keep the possiblity of jesus being slightly human open right? :)

If i didnt believ God ALSO errs i would nt be able to live with all the injustice around me..

What i hav just told u guys is my security blanket against all the BAD things in the world.
i kno my Blankie has a lot of holes in it but it helps me :|

Adventure Thursday!

2006-05-14T21:47:00.000-07:00

Work was totally driving me up the wall.. there was alil bit of personal stuff that was makin me really morose and melancholy..
So i decided to cure it all by .. drumrolls please..

BUNKING OFFICE..

he he :D

I called in sick at office on thursday and thus began a day of FUN!!!!

I watched 2 movies back to back in INOX fr FREE.. Yipee.. it was a treat from Lucio.. who got a fat Bonus and a hike :D

i watched Gangster and Munich ..
Gangster endedat 12:50 and Munich began at 1 .. we got out of the audi rushed into the tickets line.. bought tickets and rushed in to watch the second movie.. he he :D

it was reallllllllly fun..and i ate tons of popcorn and coke..

then in the evening i had my first Tequila shot .. it was nice but it didnt gimme a good buzz.. sooooo not worth it unless smbdy is treating me and i can hav atleast 3 shots.. tho i did it the movie way.. all lickin salt off the back of my hand and suckin the lime wedge.. :D

i have never watched movies bak to bak so it was great fun tho my eyes were a lil tired frm all the cryin .. i cried buckets in gangster .. i kno i kno i am water tap .. let it go people.. so i am a bit of a soppy mushy lil girl at heart..

Both the movies were nice .. i luvh gangster songs.. and munich is really nice with all the bad guys being blown up or shot down by a group of cute jews(ok so only 2 were cute.. rest were oldies).. he he :D

God i really needed that !! now i feel a lil better atleast.. i mean the stuff that i am dealin with hasnt gone away but smhow i hav a lil more strength and a lil bit of joi de vivre to deal with it..

oh btw i bought these really sexy pair of sandals which could eveoke jealousy in any womans heart.. but the biggest tragedy is that they BITE.. i just wore them fr a few hours yesterday and and i have 2 big red sore shoebites.. :(

why god why.. why do cute sandals bite my pretty feet.. why cant cute sandals be comfortable!!
why r the sandals that r comfortable look like orthopaedic corrective sandals or nuns shoes!!

I QUIT(ok.. so i will quitin abt 2 months.. same thing right?)

2006-04-17T22:54:00.000-07:00

i kno i kno i hav been slackin .. i havent been a postin! but its just felt like i had lost the will to write.. i stil checked out everybdys blog ..left comments here and there.. but i just couldnt come up with anything to say

so lemme giv a Zor ka jhatka dheere se... I have decided to Quit in abt 2 months and join a business school..
i finally got thru one of the good bscools in India..

I am scared ,excited, cry weepy, ecstatic all at the same time..
i didnt want to make this news public till i was like really sure that i was goin to join
so after abt 3 days of a vicious turmoil that felt like it was goin to rip my innards out i decided i am goin to take a plunge and do an MBA or PGDBM(post graduate diploma in business management) as its officially called. my specialisation is goin to b International Business

i just hope its the right decision.. guys send me tons of good vibes.. i need them

i havent told many people yet.. only the people i consulted abt joinin or not

phew its goin to b hard not earning .. u kno not having my own money .. yeah i kno i should hav had sm savings.. well i dnt hav anything much saved up after abt 1 1/2 years of working.. :o(

but its goin to b fun u kno.. goin bak to college ..

so i hope this counts as a real post ..

2006-04-03T22:15:00.001-07:00

i kno i kno i hav been away toooooooooo long .. but its just that i didnt hav much to say
nothing much is goin in my life
well there is 1 thing .. but i'll tell u guys abt it after its a done deal...
i am lil scared of jinxing it..

so anyway like i was saying nothing much has been happening
i read sm books didnt like any of them much

i hav to do rajs tag which gives me smthing to post abt
dnt worry i'll put up a so called "real" post soon but this just to keep my blog alive :D

My japanese name is: Sukey Kobayashi

me likey my jap name! its cool !
Speaking of japs i used to love karate kid he he:D

Japanese name generator

my worst post ummm lemme think
mayb :

http://akanksha82.blogspot.com/2005/10/i-love-being-aquarian.html

actually my first few posts were all a lil bit crappy so.. pik and choose he he :D

promise to post some cool stuff soon ..

I am not crazy i am just a lil Unwell

2006-03-15T21:26:00.000-08:00

I just read GreenSatya's post abt the Nobel museum...
it mad me want to see it... and then i suddenly thought abt how it would make me feel to b surrounded by stuff abt people who r geniuses..
i dnt kno why but i feel really small when i see their achievements..
its jsut that the only thing that i lack in life is satisfaction.. i dnt kno why i am never satisified ... mayb its bcoz my name is Akanksha which means desire and i just keep desiring stuff..
nothing absolutely nothing gives me absolute satisfaction..
people argue that its so cool to always hav aspirations... but fr once i dnt want to aspire to BE smthin , to DO smthin.............. i JUST WANT BE

why does God(yes i think its his doing) make sm people sooooooooooo intelligent that they r happy with what they r
some people soooooooooooooooooo dumb that they r happy coz they kno no better
but sm people like us who r like average or abv average who kno that they r not geniuses but always aspire fr greater things.. never reach them coz they r oh so slightly out our reach....

ahhhhhhhh i just want to b happy and content... and i kno people will tell to b happy and to b satisfied with what i hav.. but i just cant do it..

BASICALLY I DNT KNO HOW TO BE HAPPY AND CONTENT

arrggghhhhh ...........
i kno there are tons of people who would die to b in my shoes.. but there r tons of people in whose place i want to b........

i just want to hav the magic key to happiness..
sm of my freinds say iys FAITH.. but i think i hav none
i am a cynic.. a questioner
i dnt question gods presence
i question his actions

i want to kno why sm people hav it easy all their lives while sm people r miserable and hav to work thrice as hard to get smthing

i want to kno why 3 month old babies are raped and the offenders go scot free

why is there abuse.. child abuse, domestic violence

why does the stuff that goes on behind closed doors never

i want to kno why LIFE SUCKS...

and if it sucks so much why do people go on living

why is it a criminal offence to kill urself

WHY???????????????????????????????

why do sm people find the love of their lives while sm people die alone unfulfilled

why is their a charade of CHOICE in this world..

i think CHOICE is just and ILLUSION

nobdy has any control over anything.....u can control whatever u do.. but u cant control what other people r doin

even if u act in the most logical and rational manner possible there is no guarantee people r goin to react in the same manner
they might just do smthing totally arbitrary!!!!

people by and large are not rational animals and
being a rational person feel totally lost smtimes!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

mayb the stuff that i just wrote is totally unconnected ,.. and i really dnt kno what caused this outburst but i just had to put this up!

Dizz(y)aster

2006-03-14T03:06:00.000-08:00

i havent been feeling too well over the last couple of days..
and my PM shows no sign of easing up on me..
yesterday i wasnt feeling well at all.. i was very dizzy hence i told him that i would be goin home early and not attend the weekly conf call..
he made a very bad face..but i went home anyway to rest..

now since morning he's been giving me dirty looks.. god like i told px i think my PM is the minion of anti christ.. ;D

so even with my head spinning a lil today i hav been doing sm work..
God why did the complicated stuff hav to come now when i am not well .. when i was hale and hearty i got really easy stuff .. ugggghhhhhhhh .. Murphys Law

Damn u murphy.. i hate all guys named Murphy frm today... oh ok i'll make an exception fr Eddie murphy coz he's so funny ... ha ha ha i crack myself up

Oh btw lemme giv u an update abt my new Roommate..
She is pretty clean.. leaves the loo clean..
wait up i am comin to the good stuff..
she is LOUD.. way too loud.. u should hear her when she is talkin on the phone its like we r back in the times when people used to shout into the phone bcoz they thought that the person at the other side wnt be able to hear them..
well take that and magnify it 5 times..
And boy when she talks to me and gets excited she talks even louder..

But she is fun to talk to.. and she doesnt hav any false pretenses abt makin me her friend.. we r just room mates and she is fine with that.. she never crosses any boundaries..

hell she is almost a perfect room mate.. pity she will be leaving soon i think..
dnt kno who'll take her place.. *shudder shudder*

i have been thinkin abt putting up a post abt a couple of things but they require me to think straight which i havent been able to bcoz of my head spinning..

i think i'll put them up as soon as i feel a lil better :D

any home remedies fr diziness?..

I'm Back

2006-03-07T02:34:00.000-08:00

Hey people.. the reason for my disappearance last week was that i had gone home to delhi... gave an interview for IMT ghzbd..
interview went ok.. lots of questions on economics which to a software engineer like me sounded like greek.. and i told the as much.. i hazarded guesses only when they forced me to..i dnt kno if i'll get thru.. :(

rest of the vacation was one big feast as i ate delicious food cooked by my mom.. :D
i ate tons of rajma chawal and stuffed gobhi parathas.. :P

i dnt want to talk too much abt it .. i am fasting today.. and i am dyinnnnnnnn for some parathas!

so nothing much happened while i was in delhi as always.. coz once i reach home i refuse to go out.. the obligatory visit to my aunts place was the only time i that i did venture out.. i hated it .. false smiles.. yucky food.. uggh

only 1 incident really stands out in my mind..
at the IMT interview i was ambushed into conversation by a hyperactive guy..
he just kept talkin and talkin shit.. i mean he actually said lame stuff like:

Lame guy(LG):r u a leo?(does he kno my janamkundli by talking to me fr 5 seconds also.. mayb he is an antaryami who knows everything!)

Me: No(feel like puking on him)

LG: so what is ur sunsign?

Me: Aquarius

LG: Oh.. but u look like a leo!

Me: Ok..but i am an aquarian(thoroughly exasperated but still trying bravely to smile)
LG: what r aquarian characteristics?
Me: i dnt kno.. not much into sunsigns(trying to wiggle out of the conversation)

suddenly my name is called and i am saved!

after the interview.. he comes up to me and grins stupidly

LG: i would really like to keep in touch with an interesting and unique person like u(does he think i am weird.. i feel like shouting "dude u r the weird guy!!") please mail me

Me: ok..(trying really hard not to throw up, i take his mail id.. vowing to burn it the second he leaves!)

So thats it my vacation in a nutshell
will add updates if i remeber smthing else :D

czme straight to office from the airport.. tired,hungry and bleary eyed...
still my project manage(devil incarnate) is not letting me go home.. he wants me to attend our weekly conf call hence i have to stay back :( .. so to take revenge i havent worked at all since morning *evil laugh*

RM saga ends

2006-02-21T22:27:00.000-08:00

Finally the roommate saga comes to an end!..
She has moved into another room.. a new girl would be coming to my room in a couple of days i think..
i hope this new girl is ok..she is just staying fr abt a month and a half.. so hopefully i'll hav a double room all to myself till sister finds a new girl to move in with me!! but i still hav to adjust maadi with this new roomie fr abt a month

didnt get a single room yet.. mayb in april i might get god willing..

will keep u posted on how it goes with this new RM!

Oh by the way i am really happy that i get to stay in the same room while she had to move out.. he he :D i am such a sloth..

No more hair in the drain.. no more toilet paper floating around in the loo... no more scowling face early in the morning.. no more fear of her eavesdropping.. freedom..

Weekend Status Report 18-19 Feb 06

2006-02-20T03:41:00.000-08:00

I had a huge bloggers block last week and now that i had sm stuff to write abt i have been really tense since morning..
i have had to prepone my vacation schedule from 16 march to next weekend ie 26 feb
so i'll be gone the whole of next week.. i am going home to delhi

i had to prepone my trip coz i hav finally gotten a Group discussion/interview(GD/PI) call from a BSchool(IMT Ghaziabad)..
I ended up spending Rs. 3250 more just for the cancellation and preponement of my tickets..i hate spice jet :(
The downside to the call is that i havent prepared at all for the GD/PI coz i thought i wouldnt get a call from anywhere!

the upside is i get to go home(Delhi) early yipee!

So please send me tons of luck guys.. and pray for me if u guys pray that is.. :D

As for the weekend here goes:

Friday night:

Another fight with RM(my Roommate for those of u who dnt remember)
She gave me big time dhamki(threat) that if i dnt come back to my room early she would lock me out :(
i like talking to sm girls in my convent and was talking to them till 2:30 in the night and my poor RM was waiting with the door open and the light on in the room... so she finally cracked and screamed at me at 2:30 in the night ..he he :D

So i slept in the other girls' room that night ..
Oh and i am not going into too much detail coz i think she sneaks into my blog and reads stuff.. he he :D i think she hates me .. well i hav given her enough reason and its not like she is the apple of my eye(she is more like a pain in the a**)

oh my god i kno she is goin to read it but look at me typing away all this stuff..
i think i hav a death wish...

Saturday:

Not as exciting as friday night..

i got up at around 7:40.. went back to my room,knocked, it opened miraculously..
i slept on my own bed finally.. he he :D

i got up at 11..saw her scowl at me..
dressed up and went for a brunch at pizza hut..

then dropped my laudry at the neighbourhood laundry,got my sandals repaired

Helped a friend buy sandals and a wallet..we got a great deal on them.. only 300 fr the sandals and 150 fr the wallet .. both genuine leather :D
me was happy..

Saw Zinda on TV.. its a really cool movie tho slightly gross with the teeth breaking stuff..but the action is really authentic.. slickly directed, cool concept .. all in all a really nice copy of sm korean flick!

Sunday:

Went fr brunch again to pizza hut, my friend is addicted to them plus they r giving great deals nowadays.. only 180 bucks fr a meal fr 2..

Then we saw Rang De Basanti.. this was the highlight of my weekend..
it was such a nice movie.. very well directed and the guys look good enough to eat especially kunal kapoor..
i cried buckets.. its such a gut wrenching end.. but now the director(Rakesh mehra) is forgiven for making an asinine movie like Aks..

the way DU(Delhi University) life is portrayed in the movie is amazing.. its exactly how we used to talk and dress..
none of that whats up dude stuff.. it has punjabi mixed with english mixed with hindi..exactly how kids talk in the colleges..

there is absolutely nothing to criticize in the movie.. excpet fr the fact that aamir looks a lil old..
oh did i tell u drooled over all the guys(except aamir.. he's ok but not drool material anymore)..man they r goodlooking.. :D

i just cant stop raving so i'll just shut up.. oh and before shutting up.. i just want to ask all u guys to watch it atleast once.. u'll love it..!!

phew that was a looooooooooong post.. i think my block is finally getting over :D

This just in:

Huge fight with RM.. It was a straw that broke the camel's back .. she didnt flush properly so i told her to do it.. she said she'll do it later.. i said i had to go to the loo.. she didnt do it.. i threatened i would go to sister.. she still didnt do it.. i went to sister and complained.. she came and told sister abt my 2 o clock escapade.. sister told us to chill and go to sleep(ok so she didnt say chill she said relax).. we did..
talked to sister in the morning.. she said she is going to do what s best for both of us..
i hope she moves out!.. but anyway i think the RM saga is going to end soon!!
Do u think sister will take her side or mine? she is a catholic and loves to tell sob stories.. so mayb sister will take her side :o(

How weird am I?

2006-02-09T23:13:00.000-08:00

As i was unable to find 5 weird things about myself.. i took this online test.. and yipee! i am 40% weird.. its soo cool! he he :D i like being weird isnt that weird!

You Are 40% Weird

Normal enough to know that you're weird...

But too damn weird to do anything about it!

How Weird Are You?

2006-02-05T22:05:00.000-08:00

I turned 24 yesterday and the first thing that came to my mind was that in a yr i'll be 25 and then i would hav to get facials done every month!
he he he :D i think i am a lil too obsessed with my looks..

Jokes apart i am going to take out time today and just look at what i hav accomplished and what i want to accomplish in the coming years! i hope i am not too disappointed with myself..
i wanted to be a doctor..ended up being a software engineer!! but its not too bad.. i earn well.. i dnt hav the guilt of seeing a patient of mine die..

I went bowling yesterday,saw Narnia and had a great lunch at JukeBox..so a great bday .. btw i looked nice too acc. to my friends and hostel mates..(i had splurged a lot on clothes on saturday so if i didnt look nice the money would hav gone down the drain!)

oh and the horsey roommate did a really nice thing ..she wished at around 12 and gave me a lil present.. like i said to her i think she is trying to kill me with kindness...

Today at 24 i am more mature(acc. to some people i still behave like i am in college but i think i hav matured a lot since i hav moved away from my family to bangalore), nicer looking tho i need to lose some weight, slightly more content than i was say 5 years ago..

My mom has sent like tons of things frm delhi .. i hope i get them today!
u kno she is soo sweet she wanted to surprise me so she sent the present to one of the girls in my hostel so that they could surprise me on my bday .. but unfortunately the girl is out of station so my mum had to tell me .. i am going to get the presents today..god willing and courier guy permitting..its already delayed due to sm declaration that my mom forgot to giv..

i am waiting with bated breath for my mommies gifts .. she is the best mom ever.. i hope i can b a good daughter!

5 weird things about me

2006-01-30T02:13:00.000-08:00

My tummy is much better so its time to do the "5 weird things about me" tag

1. I am generally not a cleanliness freak but if i am cleaning somethin it has to become spotless otherwise i wnt stop scrubbing.. and once it is nice and clean i dnt feel like using it thinkin that it will get dirty again!.. but i hav to and hence the vicious cycle to have spotless stuff goes on and on ..

2. I have to look at myself in all the reflective surfaces be it a puddle of water or car windows or shop windows.(I am not a vain creature tho coz i dnt even spend 5 minutes infront of the mirror when i am getting ready in the morning.. so its really weird that i do this)

3. I crave my own space and then when i get that space i feel lonely(i kno i sound completely loony but this is actually what happens with me)

i cant think of anymore weird things about me... if i remember anymore weird things abt me i'll post them... mayb u guys can add smthing that u might hav noticed..
raj and lucio hav to hav noticed smthing weird so i am waiting fr them to add their comments..

lemme tag greensatya , sej and lucio(who seems to hav retired frm the blog scene)

i think i am gettin a bloggers block also,i can see all the symptoms:
1. i am doing only tags basically
2. i havent put up a real post since the roommate fight post!

hope to get rid of the block soon and come up with smthing!

Tummy Trouble

2006-01-26T21:02:00.000-08:00

Sorry for not posting people.. i have been a lil busy with work..then yesterday was a holiday and i didnt hav access to a computer..
Also i have a bad case of food poisoning.. i just came to office today to tie up some loose ends..so thought i would just giv a status report to u guys also..
i am not feeling well at all and just came in to do some imp work.. i hope to be out of the office by lunchtime!
i think i'll be hale and hearty by monday and then i shall put up a nice long post and also do px's tag!

My Perfect Guy Tag

2006-01-22T23:59:00.000-08:00

Here are the rules of this one:

The tagged victim has to come up with 8 different points of their perfect lover.

Need to mention the sex of the target.

Tag 8 victims to join this game & leave a comment on their comments saying they’ve been tagged.

If tagged the 2nd time, there’s no need to post again.

Target: Male

1. He should be good looking coz i cant wake up every morning and see a butch ugly guy lying next to me.

2. He should do lil lil things fr me.. like help me wear my sandals outside the temple when my hands r full of other stuff..

3. Surprise me all the time..(pleasant surprises only) i want a guy who can keep me on my toes all the time .. ie i think i am not a very interesting person so he should be really interesting so that we never get bored..

4. He shouldnt get embarassed easily coz i hav a big mouth and i am clumsy so he has to be pretty cool abt all this..

5. He should love to Dance. I just love dancing and it makes me forget all my worries..

6. He should absolutely adore me and he should be vocal abt his feelings fr me.. or show me in some way that he loves me .. i am not good with hints.. i need to kno that i am loved

7. He should be able to take care of me during my mood swings.. which happen all the time .. 1 min i am at the top of the world next minute i feel like the scum that grows under the fridge.. so he should try and keep me on top of the world most of the time and when i am feelin blue he should help me get out of it

8.He should give me tons of space and freedom to be ME(crazy,impulsive,gregarious). He should never get Jealous of my guy friends..

i am not tagging anyone,anybdy who wants do this tag can do it!

A-Z tag

2006-01-16T01:39:00.000-08:00

A - Age you got your first Kiss: Never kiss and tell.

B - Band listening to right now: Elvis(Jailhose rock)

C- Crush: i have a huge crush on Fardeen khan(sauve as hell) and John abraham(as long as he doesnt talk) and Antonio banderas(sexy as hell).

D- Drink of Choice: Coke

E - Easiest person [people]: My mom.

F - Favorite band at the moment: Elvis(love me tender and cant help falling in love)

G - Gummy worms or gummy bears?: heard of gummy bears but never eaten them so dnt kno.

H – Holiday: is synonymous to sleepin as much as i want to and movies!!

I - Instruments: My dissection kit.

J - Juice: I love Orange juice(Tropicana only).

K-Kids: Cute to play with and look at but not when they r cryin or tantrummy.

L - Longest car ride ever: delhi to alwar.. didnt like it much..i get puky(motion sickness)

M - Major: Software

N - Nicknames: Rinki.

O - One wish: For me and my dearest ones to b happy frever.

P - Phobia[s]: Arachnophobia

Q - Quote: I think therefore I am.

R - Reason to smile: Jokes, cute kids , cute animals, my friends smiles..

S - Song you sang last: "Wise men say only fools rush in bit I cant help fallin in love with u!"

T - Time you woke up [today]: 7:15 but stupid room mate in loo.. so got up again at 7:30..

U - Unknown fact about me: I spend extravagantly then crib abt no savings at the end of the month!

V - Vegetable you hate: Karela, Shalgum and Saag.

W - Worst thing to have happened to you: I lost my chacha this year..

X-rays you've had: 3
1)when i got a hairline fracture in my ankle
2)when i fractured my left hand(3rd day in bangalore,broke it while go carting)
3)chest xray fr the medical checkup before joinin my new company

Y - Yummy food: Parantha, rajma chawal, baigan bhartha

Z - Zodiac sign: Aquarius

I would like to tag Px and Lucio..

Weekend Status Report(Jan14-15)

2006-01-15T23:36:00.000-08:00

Secret of the above pic would be revealed as u read the post.
Saturday:
Woke up really really late(11 o clock)
reminded roommate abt cleaning the room as it was her turn to do it
went thru a beauty routine of face scrub,face pack,long luxurious bath
dropped laundry at the dry cleaners
had nice coffee and brownie..(do not remind me of my resolution)
shopped at fabmall for stuff
had a meal at pizza hut.. didnt get the discount that i was supposed to get!!
reached convent early.. reminded my room mate to clean the room!

Sunday:
went fr lunch again at pizza hut again!
saw "Family".. didnt like it much.. the new hero sucks..amitabh as always is a treat to watch..
reached convent .. saw that room was not clean nor was the toilet.. started fuming!!
had fight with roommate who nicely sauntered back late in d evening!!

Me: why didnt u clean the room?

Room Mate(RM): i had gone out and i just came back!

Me: well u should hav cleaned up bfore going out!

RM: What abt so many times in the past when u didnt clean up?.. i never forced u to clean up!!

Me: U r a timid person its not my fault that u didnt hav the courage to ask me to do it!!! i am not timid and i am askin u to do it!

RM: just bcoz u hav bcome a cleanliness freak(my words she doesnot hav such a great vocab , she just muttered sm stupid bull shit that i am translating as cleanliness freak!)
i am goin to clean up next week!!

Me(i am ready to murder her by now so i dnt want the fight to escalate.. delhites r known fr road rage .. i didnt want to go into room rage and kill my ****ing stupid,
i-look-like-a-horse,spit comes out of my mouth when i talk excitedly roommate): I dnt care when u do it , just do it!

15 mins later: the wash basin is clogged with her horse hair..

Me: the sink is blocked with ur hair .. clean it now!

RM cleans the sink.. doesnot even look at me...

10 mins later: Me in sister's room..

Me: I would like a room of my own sister.. i need my own space and privacy!

Sister: Wokay! but there r no rooms available as of now!

Me: then sister just make me the first person on the waiting list!!

Sister: ok..

10 mins later: me on the phone with a friend

Me: i hope i did the right thing!

Friend: what the.. ofcourse u did the right thing and if u hate it so much then u can again ask fr a roommate! its not such a big decision.. i dnt kno why u get worked up abt such small things!!

Me(timidly): ok.

Weekend rating: 3/5

my only doubts:
a) i would either get depressed or lonely or scared in a room of my own!!

But the perks r enormous:
a) not see RM's horse like spitty face
b) hav a really clean room
c) tons of privacy.. she used to eavesdrop on my conversations..(yes people she is a pest!!)

I hope i did the right thing people!
What do u think?

Bookworm-1

2006-01-11T22:26:00.000-08:00

I love to read books..
Nowadays I have been reading like tons of books.. I have been free at work .. so I read all the Harry potter books.. yes I had read them once already but I like those books enough to re read them..and I read some other books which I cant exactly recall

Lemme try and give u a brief overview of the 2 recently read books that I really liked:

1. The curious incident of the dog in the night time by Mark Haddon : I just loved this book.. it is amazing the way the author has written from the perspective of an autistic kid.. I mean all u guys who like to read u have to get a copy and read it..

2. Five point someone what not to do at iit by Chetan Bhagat: a very thought provoking book written by a guy who himself is an iit iim alumni… I finished the book in 3 hours straight.. it is a great page turner ... this book just gives an insight into what happens after u crack the almighty iitjee and make it into the most prestigious engineering colleges in India….

I have a lot of books waiting to b read also.. coz there was a sale and I bought some books..plus I borrowed some from my friend so right now I have these books just waiting t b read:

1.Mill on the floss: yes people I am ashamed to say it but I have not read this classic.. btw I love classics ..i have read most of them…

2.Godfather returns: I haven’t read godfather but seen all movies so I just wanted to see whether this guy forgotten his name..( its not by Mario puzo.. ) had the same quality as the movies..

3.Moscow vector: I just started reading it and I don’t like it much but since once I have started reading I have to finish a book I’ll read it ..

4.LOTR: I don’t think I a ever going to start it let alone finish it…its humongous man!!.. and whenever I plan to start it I just get some other book .. and I just say that I’ll finish this new thinner book and read LOTR after I finish it.. but that never happens..

Another book that I am planning to borrow is the Eragon part1 .. I want to read it coz people have said that it is even better than Harry potter.. so i want to see if there is any truth in this claim!

My second tag!

2006-01-10T20:31:00.000-08:00

FOUR JOBS YOU'VE HAD IN YOUR LIFE:
1) Software Engineer
2) Part of the School magazine Editor board
3) --
4) ---

Yes people i am a very boring person who has not done any adventurous jobs.. and i hav been workin fr only 1 yr... and not to look like a complete bozo i added the scool magazine bit (even tho it was not a paid job)

FOUR MOVIES YOU WOULD WATCH OVER AND OVER:
1) The Mummy(my brother and i hav watched the movie like a gazillion times and yet even today i can watch without gettin bored!)
2) MIB(i loved Will smith in it)
3) Matrix(any part)
4) Kuch kuch hota hai(Actually any mushy movie of shahrukh khan)

FOUR PLACES YOU HAVE LIVED:
1) Central Delhi
2) East Delhi
3) Bangalore
4) ----

FOUR TV SHOWS YOU LOVE TO WATCH:
1) Friends
2) Becker
3) CSI
4) Amazing Race

FOUR PLACES YOU HAVE BEEN ON VACATION:
1) Rajasthan
2) Muscat
3) Bombay
4) ------

yes i kno i need to get a life!..

FOUR OF YOUR FAVORITE FOODS:
1) Rajma Chawal
2) Baingan Bhartha
3) Stuffed paranthas(except for aloo,i hate potatoes)
4) Muffins,cakes,pastries,ice cream sundaes(i consider these also as food items hence the weight issues and search for gyms!)

FOUR PLACES YOU WOULD RATHER BE RIGHT NOW:
1) in bed (sleepy)
2) in a disc dancing my blues away
3) Paris(always wanted to see it)
4) in the arms of a hunk!(ok ok.. its not exactly a place but thats where i want to b right now)

FOUR BLOGGERS YOU ARE TAGGING:
1) raj
2) lucio
3) anyone of the bhailogs(i kno u guys r lazy buggers so any1 of u can do it)
4) greensatya

Weekend Stuff -1

2006-01-09T03:03:00.000-08:00

Since i am feelin a lil blue and not enough creativ juices r flowing hence Just to make myself post sm stuff i am goin to start the Weekend stuff series.. the name is quite self explanatory so here's the stuff that went on this weekend..

--Cleaned my room and now its glistening .. ok well not glistening but pretty clean!
atleast now i wnt see bugs comin out frm under my bathroom mat.. yes people me and my roommate are not exactly cleanliness freaks..but now i have turned into one.. i dnt kno why tho.. suddenly everything has to b spotless..and she is such a slob(actually not a slob just really really inefficient coz she does try to clean she's just really bad at it).. she doesnot even clean the drain properly even tho its basically her thick, horsey hair clogging it..arrrgghhhh!

--Ended up watching the movie "wedding crashers"
once coz i wanted to..
second time coz my friends and i are such imbeciles that we didnt even bother to check which movie we got the tickets for..so instead of goin for "in her shoes" we ended up going for wedding crashers again!

--Now since i hav watched the friggin movie twice..lemme tell u its not as funny as people r sayin it is.. and i think that guys find it funnier than girls.. i dnt kno why tho.. mayb all guys r like Joey (Friends) who thinks nomad is a funny word coz it rhymes with gonad..

--Learned that guys can b as particular if not more abt shoes as girls r abt their footware(courtesy Raj and Lucio)

--Did a pedicure and facial session and stayed up really late talkin to a friend in the hostel.. both of us bitchin abt diff people.. gossip can b a lot fun smtimes..
and hey it was all harmless just pickin on girls awful taste in clothes and how sm people r total morons at everythin they do ;D

--Depressed abt my CAT results which r not good enough fr the BScools of my choice(95.77 percentile)

so all in all an OK weekend!(it would hav been a really good weekend but for my cat result and seeing wedding crashers twice)

Weekend Rating: 2.5/5

Forgot (totally unintentional) to mention that Raj took us to Pizza corner or was it pizza express i am not sure.. but a great pizza place..
And the pizza was yum!.. tho it was really costly..and it was after a really long time that i had jalapenos on my pizza(i had forgotten how yummy jalapenos can b)!

New years eve

2006-01-02T22:37:00.000-08:00

I spent my new years eve with 5 girls in my convent eating tons, trying to stop giggling and playin the music really softly (as if we had a choice.. the friggin speakers needed a plug point.. and in our jail that we call a hostel we r not allowed to use plugpoints so none of them works.. i think sister actually sneaks in and cuts the power herself )..i am going way off track ..

so to get bak to the party ..
we could barely hear the music.. but one thing we had tons of was foood.. we had 2 cakes(one whose icing was so hard that we had to actually saw throught it with a knife..and it tasted yucky..), tons of chips and coke... and samosas.... we were stuffing ourselves like crazy and yet we were barely makin a dent into our food supplies...
we still hav 1 packet of chips left that we hav to finish today..

there is an american girl in our hostel who wanted to smoke but if sister found out she would throw us out of the convent hence we lit incense and the she sat near the window puffing away to glory.. it was really cool coz we talked a lot.. abt life , guys..i sort of connected with her coz she is not as conservative and narrow minded as the other girls in d hostel..

i didnt hav like tons of fun but it wasnt the worst new years eve also..
comme ci comme ça ..

But i am hopin the new year would bring tons of happiness for everybody and metric tons of excitement and happiness for me and all the people who read my blog..

Pigeon Guy

2005-12-28T21:28:00.000-08:00

The guy sitting just in front of my cubicle is really weird..
he keeps moving his head all the time like a pigeon .. i dnt kno what the hell is wrong with him but its really really irritating..
plus he even looks weird..ghostly white with his features just blending into his skin..
thank god this is jus a temp place that he has been assigned.. my lovely non disturbing neighbour is goin to b bak monday..
till then in the 180 vision of my eyes i hav to keep seeing that weird head bobbing twitching guy..
god i hope he is not suffering frm a disease.. well i dnt think so .. so till there is some medical evidence suggesting that he has to keep moving his head to stay alive .. i shall make fun of him :D

Quiz time

2005-12-27T23:44:00.000-08:00

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free.

In love, you feel the most alive when things are straight-forward, and you're told that you're loved.

You'd like to your lover to think you are optimistic and happy.

You would be forced to break up with someone who was ruthless, cold-blooded, and sarcastic.

Your ideal relationship is comforting. You crave a relationship where you always feel warmth and love.

Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.

You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred.

In this moment, you think of love as something you thirst for. You'll do anything for love, but you won't fall for it easily.

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

Most of the above stuff rings true!
check it out fr urself..

Holiday blues!

2005-12-26T00:15:00.000-08:00

Its holiday season and i am down with a nasty cold!
plus i am feelin really blue and crummy...
i am tryin to remedy these blues by shopping.. but shoppin is like alcohol it gives u nice lil high when u r doin it but after that goes down u end up feelin even worse!
worse coz ur bank balance dwindles and mine is not a pretty sight right now :( sob sob..
but what the heck i need sm highs right!
and this cold is also drivin me crazy coz i keep sneezin all d time!
i had a friend who really liked it when i had a cold coz acc to him my voice sounded really sexy when i am all sniffly..
plus i dnt take cold medicines coz they lead to my nose being blocked which almost kills me coz i hav sinusitis..
uuugghhhhh.. i hate havin a cold!
i need sm TLC but there is nobody here who would do it..sob sob.. whine whine!

My New Year's Resolutions

2005-12-19T02:08:00.000-08:00

1. Join a Gym
2. Eat less chocolates,brownies and ice creams..(this is going to b nearly
impossible but what the heck i'll try)
3. Lose Weight(Hopefully this will happen as soon as i do no.1 and 2)
4. Join a dance class
5. Like myself for who i am and not what people think i am
6. Try to be more patient and less judgemental.. and try to think of peoples
emotions along with rational logic..

These are the only ones i can come up with for now.. will update the list later if i come up with more..

What r ur resolutions fr the new year.. pray tell!!
and if u r one of those people who dnt make new years resolutions just tell me some things that u would really like to change abt urself...

I am back!!

2005-12-19T01:55:00.000-08:00

Hi people if any of u r still reading my blog..
i am back after a vacation of around 9 days at home..
i just didnt feel like coming back but i had to ..people pay me to work not for R&R
which is what i feel like doing all the time.. ok so not all the time but most of the time...
some of the time i feel like writing earth shattering, mind numbing code to solve the mystery of the world but since i am not a genius that goal is too far out of reach..hence i shall just blog till i get some work frm my boss tomorrow...
so today will just be spent catching up on my official and unofficial mails.. reading my favorite blogs... he he he
i ate a lot of parathas at home.. i hope i havent put on a lot of weight
i am planning to join a gym soon .. but it has to be really nice not like the last one who's treadmill kept stopping in the middle of the jog(inspite of all this he charged a bomb) ..
next post my new year resolutions..

Going Home!!

2005-12-08T02:14:00.000-08:00

I'll be going home to delhi on saturday and will be back next monday.. so i wnt be able to post since i dnt hav an internet connection at home..
I'll miss everybdy's posts but will try and catch up as soon as i come back on 19th..
I am just trying to tie up loose ends bfore i go so i am a lil busy..
I hope i dnt forget to pack something..
Delhi Here I come!!!!
I hope nothing goes wrong.. coz like they say "Dilli door ast"(which means delhi is still far i.e. u havent reached there yet)

2005-12-05T21:56:00.000-08:00

I hate my new PM(Project manager).
He is such an a**e wipe!(Pardon my language)
He always keeps putting me down in front of everybody..
Keeps saying sarcastic things
He is just making my life miserable..
I was in tears yesterday bcoz of him ....
I just wish he would stop smirking weird srcastic way of his!!!!
I just wish i could wipe of that arrogant self satisfied smile from his face forever..
He just likes to b the center of attention at all meetings and anybdy trying to say anything is humiliated or admonished...
I HATE HIM.. I wish i could just get into a b school away frm all this s**t...

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

2005-12-02T02:52:00.000-08:00

My friends already kno that i am obsessed with online tests :

Here is on of the fun ones:

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

My result is( Me likey the result but i dnt kno how many of the people i kno would agree..) :

Your Birthdate: February 5

You have many talents, and you are great at sharing those talents with others.
Most people would be jealous of your clever intellect, but you're just too likeable to elicit jealousy.
Progressive and original, you're usually thinking up cutting edge ideas.
Quick witted and fast thinking, you have difficulty finding new challenges.

Your strength: Your superhuman brainpower

Your weakness: Your susceptibility to boredom

Your power color: Tangerine

Your power symbol: Ace

Your power month: May

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

Cry baby

2005-11-28T23:00:00.000-08:00

I am on the verge of tears all the time nowadays hence this post.....
i have always been a cry baby.. i used to cry to skip school
i used to cry when smbdy teased me..
now i cry if smthin sucks at office or if i hav a fight with a friend
i cry at movies..
so basically i cry a lot...and life smhow never misses to giv me an opportunity fr doing that

But i think i am really bad at the consoling stuff..
what i am good at is crying at the drop of a hat..
i kno its ironical that smbdy like me who has so much experience in the cryin game has no idea what to do when a person starts cryin in front of me..
if its a girl i generally hug her..i try not to say anythin ..just listen to her rhetorical questions...
if its guy then i am really in trouble coz i then i hav no idea what to do or say...

so people how do u react when a person starts cryin in front of u..
r u very uncomfy ?
what do u do?

CATastrophe

2005-11-22T22:59:00.000-08:00

I gave my CAT(Common Admission Test) to get into a Bschool.
Everybody in india already has an idea abt how difficult it is.. but just fr the non indians and the odd indian who doesnt kno abt cat i'll giv u a lil bkgrnd info
Its an entrance exam conducted by the IIMs(best b scools in India) to select abt 1200 students frm around 1.7 lakh aspirants..
As u can guess the odds of gettin selected are very low..

Now to get back to my rant.. i didnt do very well ..
this time it was really really difficult...
My score acc to IMS site is around : 37
whereas acc to CL and Time my score is around 43 (quant:5 VA:23 and DI:15)
(CL,IMS,Time are coaching institutes)

So i dont kno whether i am going to get any calls?
if yes then frm which institutes?

if anybdy has any ideas pls comment!
Also if any other fellow cat aspirant logs on pls tell me how u fared!
its nice to hav sm idea abt how other people fared!

Seinfeld VS Friends

2005-11-16T22:20:00.000-08:00

I dnt kno why people go gaga over Seinfeld...(including raj)
I admit seinfeld is funny but smhow i am not crazy abt it.. its just a timepass serial acc to me
I love friends on the other hand.. isnt every every single one of the 'friends' absolutely lovable.. Friends is addictive.. i dnt kno how many times i hav watched friends re runs .. and i still enjoy them every time i see them..
I like Chandler a lot tho Phoebe and Joey come a close second..
I even love the theme song ..

Title: "I'll Be There for You"

So no one told you life was gonna be this way
Your job's a joke, you're broke, your love life's D.O.A
It's like you're always stuck in second gear
When it hasn't been your day, your week, your month, or even your year
But ... I'll be there for you
When the rain starts to pour
I'll be there for you
Like I've been there before
I'll be there for you
'cause you're there for me too.

By: The Rembrandts

I adore FRIENDS...So i pick Friends over Seinfeld anytime!!
How abt u guys?
Vote fr either Seinfeld or Friends..

Also mention ur favorite character in the series...

My new Cell !

2005-11-13T23:37:00.000-08:00

After a lot of deliberation i have finally bought a Nokia 6020.
I hope it was a right decision..my brother is already cribbing that it doesnt hav FM or mp3 support... but i was not willing to shell out more moolah for those!!
The camera resolution is really good though:640 x 480 pixels
Well i am happy that i finally have a cell phone that looks really classy .. i hated my earlier cell it was an ugly ugly phone...
I hope i dnt lose this one..
Tell me whether u like my new phone!

Feeling Miserable!

2005-11-10T21:55:00.000-08:00

I feel like a school girl today given her first assignment... I am jittery, scared, weepy yet anxious to prove myself...
The work that i have been given is not difficult at all for smbdy who knows the code but for me who has just seen all the code for only a couple of days its daunting!!!
i have not worked with that kind of code.. so i feel like lil lost girl...
i hav asked for help frm this colleague but she seems busy and has said she might help me after lunch so till then i am going to keep on feeling s**t scared
what i dnt understand abt myself is that when i dnt hav work i feel miserable and now that i hav work i am soooo scared that i am going to mess up.....
in my old company i atleast knew the project inside out and i could go on doing trial and error stuff.. here i know very lil abt the project... zilch abt the stuff that i am supposed to work with.. and i dnt kno how to go abt what they hav told me to do at all!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
What is wrong with me....
Why do i feel worthless when i am not doing anything.. and a moron if they giv me smthing and i dnt kno how to go abt it?
The only way i feel comfortable is when i design it and then code then i kno exactly what to do!
i hope i'll be able to do it!!
the biggest problem is trying to understand the way they have coded coz this project has been underway for abt 8 months and to understand the whole thing in 4 meetings!!
agghhh i jus feel miserable!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Help lost cell replacement!!

2005-11-06T20:29:00.000-08:00

I am trying to replace my cell which was stolen along with my purse.
I was hoping to buy a Nokia 6610 but its gone out of production and 6610i has a camera thats not really needed nor is it good...
So i dnt know which cell to buy .. So i am looking for a lil help from u guys..
I'll give the specs i need in my cell and mayb u guys can suggest some models...
The cell should be:
a)Sexy..ie it should look really classy.. preferably black somthing
b)should not need frequent charging!
c)shouldnt break easily coz as u can guess frm my earlier post i am not very careful.
d)shouldnt cost more than 7-8K.(can stretch it a lil if the cell is amazing)
e)mp3 storage preferred tho not required!
f)No other fancy trimmings necessary.....
and last but not the least it should look really classy
So please please please help me in this cell hunt...

Penniless

2005-10-31T22:21:00.000-08:00

I am penniless...Somebody stole my purse yesterday when i was shopping in Commercial Street..
Then that thief went on to buy 10000 worth of merchandise before i could inform the banks as i had to come home get my account number and then call them...
The bank guy said my money might be refunded but ...
I dnt kno if i'll get that money back but for now that was the only money i had..
So yes people i am penniless this diwali..
My purse also had my cell phone....
Now i dnt hav any money..,none of my friends is in bangalore.....and i dnt remember most of my friends numbers....
Hence i am royally sc***ed
I dnt kno why but i felt like posting this.. i dnt kno if its cathartic but i hav stopped crying atleast

Worst Day of my Life (Career wise)

2005-10-28T04:19:00.000-07:00

Yup its final the last nail on my coffin!!... I am going to be given some moronical work that even a monkey can do.. I am jus planning to learn as much as i can frm this crappy work and then jump ship as soon as possible!!!!!
I feel sooooooo horrible..... i didnt kno my work was going to b soooo horrible
i feel like i hav just committed the biggest mistake of my life by leaving my previous job for this one just bcoz of brand name and money.....
I feel like such an assssssss
This feels like one of the worst career blunders possible
I feel like such a fool ..
I dnt think anybody has ever made such an asinine mistake in their lives......
What is the light at the end of this dark dark tunnel ?... If i get thru to a good B School.. then these 6 moronical months with this good salary will be worth it.......(I hope!!!)
As you can guess i am having the worst day of my life.. and to top it all i am going to this company organised bash and pretend like everything is hunky dory...
And to add insult to very serious injury i am alone in bangalore .. none of my friends is in bangalore they have all gone home for diwali holidays ...
more of my pathetic rantings later

My First Tag

2005-10-26T01:40:00.000-07:00

10 Favorites:

Favorite Season: North Indian Summer(I know its a little harsh but i like it.. by the way i hate winters)
Favorite Sport: Basketball
Favorite Time: Mid morning(i am grouchy early in the morning i need to be up for a lil while before i stop feeling like i want bite everybdy's head off).
Favorite Month: February cos my birthday is in Feb.
Favorite Actor: Antonio Banderas(cz he's sexy as hell) and Shahrukh Khan.
Favorite Actress: Julia Roberts.
Favorite Ice Cream: Chocolate
Favorite Food: Garlic Bread with lots of cheese,Rajma Chawal,Whatever my mum cooks
Favorite Drink: Coffee,Orange Juice(Only Tropicana),Coke
Favorite Place: None(Every place has its pros and cons)

9 Currents:

Current Feeling: Bored
Current O/S: Windows XP.
Current Windows Open: Bloggers create post, Outlook Express, Moneybhai, Word(Some document which i am supposed to be reading), Adobe Reader(Harry Potter which i am reading)
Current Drink: Nothing
Current Time: 2:20 PM
Current Mobile(s) Used: LG
Current Show on TV: I’m not home and since i am living in a hostel i dnt get to watch tv either so i dnt kno!!
Current Thought: When will that software installation guy call me so i can go finish up the installation work?
Current Cloths: Blue checked shirt and black trousers.

8 Firsts:

First Nick: Rinki
First Kiss: like i am going to tell u!!
First Crush: Anit Khera (he was in 12th and i was in 9th std.)
First Computer: My compaq home PC.
First Vehicle I drove: i dnt know how to drive but i tried to drive a friend's santro.
First Job: Software engineer Trainee.
First Movie I watched on Pulse Global’s print (I don’t know what Pulse Global is so I’ll just make it the first movie I watched): Shri 420
First Pet: Arrow(Black labrador great dane mix)
First Shave: I am a girl thank god i dnt need to shave

7 Lasts:

Last Chai (Tea) : Today morning.
Last Movie: Into the Blue
Last Time I Drove: 1 year ago
Last Time Shaved: Never
Last Web Site Visited: Moneybhai.com
Last Software Installed: Rational Clearcase
Last Pill I Had: Today Morning

6 Have You Evers:

Have You Ever Broken the Law: Nope.
Have You Ever Been Drunk: Yup.
Have You Ever Climbed a Tree: 3-4 times.
Have You Ever Kissed Someone You Didn't Know: No.
Have You Ever Been in the Middle/Close to Gunfire or Bomb Blast: No.
Have You Ever Broken Anyone’s Heart: Yes.

5 Things:

Things You Can Hear Right Now: People whispering,Aeroplanes flying.
Things on Your Computer Table: In my cubicle i have My Workstation, 2 phones ,bottle of water,my purse,my cell,notebook,papers,puzzle cube,empty tea cup.
Things on Your Bed: My pillow, quilt, 3 books:Secrets of the code,Some short stories book and harry potter and the half blood prince(which i am re reading)
Things You Ate Today: Lunch and breakfast(Pongal)
Things in Mind: I hate that software installation guy!!

4 Places You Have Been Today:

My office,
Cafeteria,
Loo,
Conference room.

3 People You Can Tell Anything To:

My mum(except sm things which i dnt tell anybody)
Lucio(except sm things which i dnt tell anybody)

2. Choices:
Black or White: Black
Hot or Cold: Hot

1 Thing You Want To Do Before You Die:

Be really really happy without any regrets....

And because raj has tagged everybody i kno so i cant tag anybody!

Yipeeee!!!(Ahem !!and Thanx)

2005-10-23T21:18:00.000-07:00

After stayin in the proverbial "closet" i finally came out into the blogging world. I thought the only thing that can give u a head rush is a great kiss but i was wrong... Today early in the morning i got a head rush just looking at my blogs statistics(i kno raj u got it first but i got it too and there is no other word for it so i hav to say its a headrush).I had soooo many visitors... And for this all the credit goes to Lucio and Raj who are my dearest friends... An extra bit of thanx for Lucio for helping me with the look of my blog(which as u can see is stolen from him, its just that i am not very good at deciding backgrounds and stuff.. also he helped add the stat counter which provided me with a n early morning head rush)
Also metric tonnes of thanx to Vinaya hs, Becky and Abigail for visitin my humble blog and leavin comments...
i'll try and allow comments from non bloggers also vinaya.. i am not good at the settings stuff,again lucio helps me with that
Yipee!! My blogs on a roll!!

Sense and Superstition

2005-10-19T22:55:00.000-07:00

I am staying off coffee and chocolate for a month...
No its not a fad diet i am into.. its just that smtimes i promise god that i would giv up stuff that i like that most if he grants me a wish
Now when the wish comes true .. i fulfill that promise
I dnt kno why but most of them come true..
So i am doing one of those wish fulfilling fasts
Its difficult for me to stay off coffee cz i am almost an addict (a real life addict not like smbdy who is a fake addict to fanta)
But the good thing abt this situation is that i am tryin other drinks available in our break area
So yesterday i had taj mahal and twinnings tea.. liked taj mahal.. twinnings not so much
Today i am givin elaichi tea a try..the elaichi smell is slightly nauseatin.. so its off my list
Since i am off chocolate also so i cant hav all those cocoa drinks.. will giv an update on them later

I love being an Aquarian

2005-10-18T22:26:00.000-07:00

I dnt kno why but i somehow feel that being an aquarian makes me special.
I kno it makes me sound weird.. but I Love being an aquarian
My mum is an aquarian and bcoz of that we hav a bigger connection i feel...
i also want my first child to b an aquarian...
my company has blocked linda goodmans sunsigns site otherwise i would hav posted aquarian characteristics also..for ur reference
i really dnt understand what harm can come frm linda goodmans site but who cares
u guys must hav access to that site .. so jus go there and see fr urself how amazin aquarians are!!!(wink wink)

Fight for independence

2005-10-18T00:15:00.000-07:00

Am i too independent?
If i feel like i am not answerable to anybdy except my mum
then am i being too conceited.. too self centered..too flaky
does being answerable to anybdy make u any closer to them?
or more responsible?
i dnt kno!
with my mum it only gives rise to more conflicts in our otherwise perfect relationship
i think people who r close to u should jus trust u with their eyes closed
then if u do lie to them u r at fault totally!
but i dnt believ u should keep these people updated abt all ur actions even teeny tiny ones coz u need to keep people updated only if they dnt trust u!
and what is any relationship without trust!!!
mayb i am wrong
but mayb jus mayb i am right!

I hate crows

2005-10-13T22:14:00.000-07:00

My first day takin a cab to office
i wear the cutest outfit that i can find,wear new sandals(cute but my feet hurt)and step out of the house lookin cute as a button...
and suddenly from the beautiful blue sky above a warm... gooey... splash of CROW SHIT falls on me
My hair, my new shirt and my handbag are all covered in that gift frm Mr. Crow.
Now i am a person who loves all livin things ... i am scared shitless of cockroaches but i still dnt squish them... my friends can testify on my behalf.. but that day i wanted to take that lil piece of shit crow and break its neck.. with my own hands...

Well i had to go back to my room clean my hair and shirt and come out .. apologise to everybdy in the cab.. ugghhhh
Isnt that the worst sort of 1st day possible???

Alarming Statistics

2005-10-13T21:58:00.000-07:00

I am not talking about India's population explosion
I am referring to my blogs alarmin stats
Nobody is comin to my blog!!!
(Pout pout sob sob)
i know i know i hav jus started postin and the last thing that i was concerned abt when i started was people reading my blog..
but now i want people to see my blog...leav a comment or 2
is that too much too ask people????!!!!!!

Wednesday Morning Blues

2005-10-11T20:59:00.000-07:00

Since i landed this new job i am pretty much bored , depressed and lonely all the time.My only companion seems t b my computer which they hav thankfully allotted me. I kno its a highpayin job but i miss my friends frm my previous company a lil tooo much. I dnt kno when the situation here will get better. And to add insult to serious injury ours is the only company which is open today , my friends have a holiday!.. okay okay so we hav a holiday tomorrow but who wants it tomorrow i want it today so i can go out with my friends!!!
Also i hav to stay fr a con call with the client at 7 pm i dnt think anythin else can go wrong but then i dnt want to tempt the gods to make it even worse smhow!!
i think i'll put a shot of coffee into the really really blue me and feel a lil better

Money matters????

2005-10-11T02:54:00.000-07:00

I am one of those people for whom money doesnt matter much.
I dnt mind being reallly careless with my money as long as i hav lots in my bank...
but as soon as it dips (and by dips i mean dips big time)am i not allowed to crib a lil!! well i do crib! but my friend refuses to let me crib and hence i am goin to use this blog fr that...
thankfully tho my bank balance is goin to b in an ok condition by november so not much cribin fr now
lemm end this article with a very wise qoute frm Yours truly:

People say money cannot buy happiness........
But it can buy brownies and muffins so I am pretty happy with that(wink wink)
How abt U???

Rantings:Bloggers Right

2005-10-10T04:58:00.000-07:00

The first thing that i discovered abt blogs was that they r just an outlet for people to rant and rave about anythin and everythin!
Well i am not chastising them what i am sayin is i WANT TO JOIN THE CLUB!!

So my ranting for the day is, drum roll please:
I think my life sucks cz i am lonely in this new firm...
the only guy i know in this firm likes sticking around with his team.. and all my friends are in the previous company.So i was alone fr lunch,I hav no work to do(which is not fun at alllllll... tho my friends would love to disagree)

My biggest apprehension of the day, drumroll again please:
The work that will be assigned to me is goin to b sucky!
i am goin to do moronical tasks that even a monkey can do
i am never goin to rise in this firm and even if i do i will still b doin moronical tasks!

there i already feel a lil better
gotta go now but like arnie says "I'll be back"

Baby steps

2005-10-10T04:47:00.000-07:00

Hi
I just joined a new firm.. have no work to speak of
so i decided to get a blog..
Two of my friends already have a blog and are crazy abt them
so i thought lemme see what is this blog shlog abt...